I hab a code.
It's been a good run. I went over a year without going down, but the fight is over, the battle has been lost. I hab a code. The full meal deal, too. Stuffy nose; phlegmy, scratchy throat; light headed and achy all over. Blech. It was the back to school cold that finally did me in. I used to love being sick. It was an excuse to drop everything and head to bed. Adulthood did away with that dream… And so I would get mad at myself and push myself harder when I got sick. People needed me, after all. One day someone confronted me about this and passed on this bit of wisdom: "How you treat yourself is how you treat others." That brought me up short. If one of the fruits of the Spirit is gentleness, how did being harsh with myself come out when I was working with others?
Lately I'm trying to be gentle with myself in my weakness. I talk to myself like this: "I know there are things that need doing. Do what you must, leave the rest for later." When hearts and souls are at stake, there's no room for cloudy-headed thinking.
This time around, I've been thinking about a conversation God and the Apostle Paul had about a weakness of his. II Corinthians 12 tells us that Paul asked God three times to remove his "thorn in the side". And God said, "No." That's not entirely true - what God said was, ""My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Paul concludes from this that, "For when I am weak, then I am strong."
How do you respond to your weaknesses? When you get sick or injured, when your body won't do what you want it to do, when you just can't push yourself anymore? Are you gentle with yourself, or do you get frustrated and beat yourself up? Do you take your anger out on the people around you?
When you, or the people around you experience weakness, I want to challenge you first of all, to be gentle with them. And secondly, try looking for evidence of God's power - maybe your weakness is exactly what He needed to show you that He can do for you what you can't do for yourself.
Think about it.